★10 Days of Bullshit Challenge - Day 5 ★

★Rockin' Mama★  and a bunch of awesome bloggers (including moi) are doing the 10 Days of Bullshit Challenge.  

Day 5's topic is:  If I could change one thing about myself it would be____.

Check out the other topics here and go link up.

If I could change one thing about myself it would be my lack of patience. 

I have a short fuse, a very short fuse. In fact I don’t think I have a fuse at all. My temper combusts instantly, it explodes with no warning. 

However, just as quick as I have flown into my rage, hurling four letter words at top volume, the unfortunate recipient of my wrath has been blasted; it just as quickly dissolves and disappears.

The problem with this being that, the aftermath is much more damaging to the shattered people who have witnessed “The Big Bang”. They are standing with mouths agape and I expect them to accept my apologies and requests for forgiveness before they’ve even realised the sharpness of the pain I have caused.

I often feel that once I have apologised for my explosion, it can promptly be left in the past and I can move on.

This is selfish.

I know I need to take a step back and realise the magnitude of my eruptions. I wish I could know this before “The Big Bang” has happened. I wish I could monitor and gage when it is about to happen so that I can ring a fucking huge ass bell and warn myself to hold my tongue and censor words.

Can you change your general disposition?

Can you educate the art of patience to someone like me?

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Dear Patience

You left me for someone else.  I just know it!  I am devastated.  Just when I needed you the most!

You have broken my heart but I know you will return to support me 100% one day.  I have faith but how will I cope without you until you realise I was the best thing that ever happened to you?

I am in a state of denial and complete shock because I did not see it coming. I heard of friends going through similar situations but I never thought it would happen to me.

I have yelled , screamed and sobbed but it won’t bring you back, will it?  I will have to be calm and composed and analyse what went wrong.  Why did you leave me?

I don’t want to make a fresh start, I want you, Patience, and only you.  You complete me.  I need you more than you will ever know.

Please come back – all is forgiven.

A Sobbing Mum of a 4 year old aspergers girl-child

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